Today, someone very important to my life passed away. Faye was my former personal trainer and Pilates instructor. She died too young from colon cancer. It was my understanding that the last few days were very
I hope that she had the opportunity to be with her daughter and welcome her first grandchild into the world. I hope that she was able to enjoy the trip she took with her family just two months ago. I hope that she felt her life, cut short too soon, was fulfilling.
Please, please, please, in honor of Faye, a woman who never judged me by my physical appearance but encouraged me to challenge my mental appearance, get a colonoscopy where your doctor says you should. In honor of a woman who was so busy building a dream business where she helped others to be strong everyday that she forgot to take care of herself, don’t put off doing what you know you should do. In honor, of a woman who had the courage in middle age to reinvent herself and attacked life without apology except for this “one little thing”, be honest with yourself. Please, please, please do the things you need to do to take care of your health. No perception of discomfort is worth the actual pain of dying of cancer. And please, please, please, keep Faye and her family in your thoughts and prayers as they say good-bye to someone near and dear to them.
Please go here for more information about colon cancer and of course, see your doctor on a regular basis.
So, yesterday I briefly mentioned that I left a job in June without a future plan. Not ideal but very necessary. This fall, with no job prospects, I joined the ranks of the substitute teacher and while the pay is pathetic, the rewards have been many.
It did not take many days in the classroom to realize how much I enjoy teaching and how much I had missed the opportunity to be in the classroom. I enjoy being in the classroom so much that I don’t mind the rude student, the chatty student, the tattling student and the angry student.
Half the fun of substitute teaching is teaching something different every day. I have taught English, science (complete with experiment), math, art, PE and my favorite…wood shop! The lesson for me is that it doesn’t matter what I teach, it is how I teach. I enter the classroom with enthusiasm and confidence and the kids usually respond in kind.
Finally, you never know what wacky things you will be asked to deal with. Today for example, I had a child who came back from lunch, crossed the classroom threshold and became violently ill. It was epic! I have also had students disappear (high school level of course) and a fire drill which effectively shut down the wood shop for the remainder of the day.
In many ways I am grateful for my current situation. I am less stressed and enjoying family and friends again. But more importantly, I am learning about myself. What I enjoy and even what doesn’t excite me. I am handling challenges with confidence again and appreciate each and every one of them. And finally, I have had the chance to meet some pretty awesome people.
I’m curious, is anyone else going through something similar? How are you choosing to deal with your personal rediscovery?
National Blog Writer’s Month… Yikes!!! I have promised to blog everyday for the entire month of November. Just in case I don’t appear completely insane, I wanted to share that I have also joined NaNoWriMo…National Novel Writer’s Month. This means that there will be many words in my near future. Never mind that I have no novel in my brain that needs to be released, or that I have Christmas presents to make teachers to substitute and jewelry to make! So much to do and so little time.
Oh and I have also decided that I need to work out, find a winter sport I like since the snow is already on the ground here, and find at least a part time job that I can use to organize my life around.
Why all these projects you may ask. The answer is simple: I’m trying to find myself. For those of you who are just joining our program, I left a job of 9 years last June with no job in line. I am trying to figure out what I want to do, who I really am (after telling myself I was a high school guidance counselor for 10 years).
So tally ho! We are on our way!!!!